MY BLADDER IS FAR TO CLOSE TO MY EYES
My mother told me once that my bladder was far too close to my eyes. To translate that into people speak, I cry at the drop of a hat. I feel everything. I mean everything. I am super sensitive and always have been.
I pick up on people’s feelings. I feel everyone’s stuff. I can see both sides of everything.
My kids have said to me when I have been telling them some tale from my day or life, that I give them one side of the issue and then flip completely to say how I can see the other side and both are equally valid.
That puzzled me too for a long time until I realised that part of my life’s work and mission here on planet Earth was to have an overview life. The reason for this was to help other see the bigger picture of their lives and that this life was not a punishment or to be endured but as a gift from God.
That there being here was no accident and that this lifetime was a choice they made along with higher beings in spirit so that they could continue their souls journey to enlightenment.
At times it has been both a blessing and a curse. Seeing both sides of an argument means that it is difficult to take sides and that is usually what people expect you to do.
Instead I would offer words of wisdom from an omnipresent point of view, which doesn’t always go down well when the ‘offeree’ chooses not to see anything other than their own angle on an issue. I have shed quite a few people from my life with this GIFT that pervades my existence.
What is it, about our need to be RIGHT?
There has been much written and said in recent years about how those we encounter in our lives are there to teach us. This I know to be true. Most often it is not pretty what we do to each other to learn the lessons that will help our soul to grow, but that is what we agree to do before we came here.
I have said those same words to many people. I said them even before I knew what they meant and I am still learning.
My eldest child Andrew was the first recipient of my insight into such matters.
When things were not going well, which often they weren’t and he would rightly or otherwise let me know that he was displeased with me, I would say to him, “Well you chose me. What did you chose me for?”
Being a teenager he was not that enamoured with my challenge to him and I can understand that.
In later years, while working in Japan, he had a dream and called me in the wee small hours of the morning to tell me that I was right about him choosing me.
I have to confess that I had no idea at that time why I said those words to him. I realise now that they were coming from a higher place, my soul memory, as I was, without knowing, remembering that we had done this all before and here we were again having chosen each other to learn love and grow together at this time.
In 2000 I was asked without prior warning, to take my first funeral service as a Funeral Celebrant. When telling my mother about this wonderful opportunity she looked a little shocked and said, “How are you going to manage that? Your bladder is far too close to your eyes. You cry at the drop of a hat.”
I have to say that I have come very close so many times over the past 13 years. How can you not be touched by the pain and suffering of people when they have lost someone so near and dear. But instead of my empathy and sensitivity working against me it has been completely on my side throughout my work and is now my best friend when working not only as a celebrant but as a living guide, teacher and LightPath Journey Therapist
What seemed to be a curse is actually a gift and I wouldn’t have it any other way.
Approximately 20 minutes before I the fateful phone call to take my first service, I received what I call a ‘download’ from spirit. It’s often what happens when they have something they need me to know and it sends me rushing for paper and pen so that I can transcribe their message. It always comes whole and complete and is profoundly poignant as spirit always are. Their pearl of wisdom has many layers to it that over the years since have been unfolding to become my life and my work.
I will leave you with their words…. Keep shining brightly.
FOR THOSE I LEAVE BEHIND
One day before I came here I looked in upon your lives and decided, “I want to live in your house.”
I watched without you knowing and you also without knowing watched for me. Then one day when the time was right, I came to live within you and you within me. Then I came to live in your house and you in mine.
I chose you because you weren’t perfect and that meant I didn’t have to be. I chose you because you could teach me about love all kinds - how to love, what is love and what is not love. I chose you because I could observe you together and apart and see how it is done and not done. I chose you because you reminded me daily of what I came here for. I chose you because you also chose me for all of the reasons that I have just mentioned.
Ours is a relationship chosen by two or more souls to grow and love and grow some more and now it is time for me to leave you as I have achieved all that I came here to do and you must go on. Remember what I said in the beginning; I came here looked in upon your lives and decided I wanted to live in your house; I am always in your house and you in mine. We are never separate for love in eternal and souls never die we just change form.
To you my beloveds my heartfelt thanks; you have changed me irrevocably forever. My soul will be forever better because of our relationship.
Do your grieving for the loss of my body. Weep and wail and gnash and scream and cry for parting is so hard and heavy on the mind, but know that I am just a thought away at any time. Then one day when the time is right we will do this again you and I and you may perhaps leave first and I will experience the loss. Until that time – life goes on. ‘Till we meet again. I love you always.
Copyright. Olwynne Cade 2000.
Olwynne is a Soulologist and Life Coach, Teacher, Speaker and Writer who specialises in the soul's journey through the fields of reincarnation, past lives, life between lives, life after death, human consciousness, intuition, spirituality, health and well-being. She has studied and practised for 28 years in these fields.